Okay, I’m kind of not sure whether to write about work-related stuff on this blog. But since it causes some major changes in my happiness and food routine, I think I should just mention the things that bother me lately.

I just realized these last few weeks that I’m not that good of an employee. You read a lot about being assertive, active, spontaneous, positive, taking initiative, solving problems immediately when they arise. But let’s be honest. Who can manage that 24/7? Certainly not me. I’m a typical procrastinator. I’ve been that way in college, and now that I’m actually working for my money, I still procrastinate. A lot.

I’ve tried out all sorts of methods to keep me focused and motivated. First of all, I started with trying to find my passion. Whatever that means. Everyone nowadays is talking about passion as their life force. If you haven’t found your passion yet, it will be practically impossible to live a life full of joy, let alone to be happy in your work life. Well, I still haven’t found my passion yet. I’m pretty passionate about the quest for my passion, and since I’ve been blogging, I’m more happy about what I leave to this world. But to say I can make money out of this… No, I can’t. So my actual job is not my passion. At the moment that is.

So, finding passion in my work, that hasn’t happened yet. This means I will have to find a different way to keep my focus in day-to-day work life. I once read the book from David Allen – Getting Things Done. I’m sure you have heard of it, if you have the same procrastinating problem as I do. It’s a real good book. And I’ve slowly integrated this method into my life. I’m still working things out. For instance I really have to kick myself in the butt when it’s time for my Weekly Review. But when I do, on a random Friday afternoon in the office, I kick ass by ending the week on a very positive note and starting the weekend all relaxed because I know I will be reminded of all the important tasks when I get back in the office on Monday. Which means I don’t have to think about them over the weekend, when I’m at home. BUT… the whole airplane model… not happening for me yet. Maybe in time it will though.

Another way of keeping myself focused is tracking streaks using Joe’s Goals. For example, a few of my goals are to exercise for at least 10 minutes a day, not to have caffeine and sugar (not ready for that I guess, according to the latte and muffin I had for a morning snack) and to publish at least three blog post every week. Doing pretty well in that department, if I may say so.

So, today the first post about happiness. Still figuring it out, but I’m sure I’ll get there someday!